To be loved is bliss

Returning to my blog after a period of exactly 5 months and 21 days....
Actually in fact forgot that i have a blog even.... Its so bad of me....
K anyway am back to blogging.....
This is my first post after a long period of hibernation.....

Beep...Beep...Beep...
My iPhone springs back to life....
It was a message....

"I searched through books and i leafed through cards,
for words that would convey,
What i had in my heart,
But when i sat down to write,
All i can write was,
I NEED YOU THROUGHOUT MY LIFE"....

My face becomes flush nd joy fills my heart like water filling an empty pot....
I wished to forward it again to 'HER'....
Touched edit nd then selected forward......
But whom to send???
My heart came to a pause....
Thnk... Think... Think...
In fact none to forward to....
Then only realised that i have none to forward the message too nd the messaeg was the work of my unused neurons....
So pity of me.... None to send me such a wish and also one to forward too....
All a piece of my imagination....

"Being loved is bliss",It was arun's tweet...
It made me think somethin.....
And suddenly I came to this thinking....
In fact its good to be loved and also to love....

The girl who felt ignored!!!!

Friends now am giving a try at a very serious tragic stry..... Forgive me if its horrible.....

The narrator of the story is the heroine.....


I've a boyfriend, Jack..... He is a childhood friend of mine nd have been only my friend for the past 8 years..... Only a month back i realised that i've fell in love with him..... I was so shy in revealing my love.... i was worried whether my proposal wll ruin the friendship between the two.....
But i took courage nd proposed him.... He didnt respond at al.....
From tat day on he was the only guy in my life..... But for him may be am just another girl.....

Me: Jack shall v go on to a movie tonight???
Jack: Nope
Me: Y u got somethin to study???
Jack: Nope have to visit a frnd of mine.....

He always does this..... But tat it was as if the sky was falling on me.....
The next day he didnt call at al.... I saw him in the corner of my street with a bunch of gals.....
I was so much filled with anger...... "How dare can he not come to movie with me nd be happy with his other gal friends???"

I saw tat happiness in his face.... it irritated me very much.....
I gathered courage nd dragged him from the group....

Jack: hey y r u behaving so oddly???
Me: hmmm
Jack:Wat dont drag..... spit it out.....
Me: well Jack I love u.....

He suddenly left the place to a nearby shop nd got me a doll.....

Me:Jack....
jack: dont speak a word..... Just take the doll nd head home....

He didnt respect my words..... The three words tat came outta my mouth were meaningless to him.....

Days passed.... I waited for him..... Daily he wopuld stop by my home nd give me a doll.....
Days went on nd on..... 100 days..... 200 days....
Then came my Bday..... I was expecting him to call me...... But in vain he didnt wish me at al.....
tat evening he came as usual to my home nd gave me the doll.......

Me: Jack wait
Jack: what??
Me: do u know wat day is today??
Jack: nope(he told cold heartedly)
Me:Ok leave it tel me "ilove u"
Jack: I cant tel a person tat i love her just like tat..... If u r so desperate to hear it then go for someone else.....

Daya passed again..... One day i got irritated to the core.....
He gave me the doll asusual.... But i threw in over the road nd scolded him very badly.....
He went to take the doll.... I told him to leave it as such nd quit the place.....
But he didnt.....
Wen he was about to take the doll,,,,

HONK HONK

He was hit by a lorry......
tats the last time i saw Jack alive......

After a month of crazy thoughts nd Psychic behavior i entered my room....
I started counting the dolls.... 1,2,3,.......483,484....
Took a doll nd hugged it to my heart.....
"I love u" sounded the doll.....
I took everydoll nd pressed them....
"I love u"
"I love u"
"I love u"......

I was very much filled with sorrow....
Then i took the last doll..... The 485 th doll..... The doll with blood stain....
I pressed the doll.....
"Jo Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you.... Um... since I was too shy... If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that i love you... everyday... till I die... Jo... I love you..."

He loved me till his last breath..... Y God i was so rude to him...... I didnt understand his love.....
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute.......

Wasted feelings

U stand before me with a bunch of carnation flowers.......
U look beautiful in the black dress of urs......
I can see u crying......
I come closer to embrace u......
But am not able to feel touch.....
How can I wen am dead????
I Would have been alive if this had happened 2 days back!!!!!!

My first attempt at 55 fiction.......
Forgive me if its horrible.....
Am really not tat good at writing.......

The Unexpected sequelae

The Unexpected sequelae:

An young software engineer moved into the new appartment...... His
neighbour was a beautiful young gal..... The young guy developed an
immediate crush on seeing the gal..... He was so much struck by her
beauty that he was flying in the sky for a moment..... The guy decided
to get close to the gal.....

The next day..... Doorbell rings..... It was the gal..... He didn't
expect this at al....
'Hi am Priya sharma' said the gal.... No reply from the guy cos he
was in his own dreams...... She winked at him nd then he regained his
consciousness..... " am Siddhart sinha..... Welcome to my home" said
the guy...... Priya had brought him breakfast..... Sid was very much
moved by the care of his neighbour...... He took the food nd the both
were chatting a lot.....

Days passed nd the two neighbours became very close..... Sid decided
to get more close with Priya...... One Friday nit the both were having
drinks nd an asusual chat abt matters of least importance.....
Suddenly Sid became so intimate nd approached her to kiss her.....
Priya got tensed nd left the place.... Sid got depressed......

His friends at office on seeing him depressed took him to a bar on the
Saturday nit..... There Sid was drunk to the core nd wen he entered
the dance floor he was shocked like hell......
There he saw Priya as a cabrey dancer..... He got so
irritated......"She behaved as if a pure soul wen I approached
hell..... Bloody slut how dare she insult me..... I'll show her who I
am" thought Sid.....

Late the same Saturday nit wen Priya entered her appartment she was
stunned to see Sid ter..... His eyes were full with lust giving an
erotic stare at Priya..... He caught her nd raped her..... Throughout
the entire nit Priya was opposing him blabbering something..... But
Sid was soooooo drunk tat he didn't mind her.....

The next day wen Sid woke up Priya was not ter..... Ter was a letter
in the table.....
"Dear Sid,
U've done a terrible mistake..... U shouldn't have don't
tat..... Am a HIV +ve patient..... For tat reason only I kept away
from u..... I loved u so much thinking tat u were decent nd not like
other guys in this metro..... But u proved me wrong..... U too r like
the guys who spoilt my life..... I never expected this from u.....
Anyway am very sorry if my beauty has attracted u..... U have a short
lifetime left..... Pls be happy..... Let atleast the person I loved be
happy....
With lots nd lots of love,
Priya......"

Sid was speechless...... He felt bad throughout his entire life......
He diedafter a few years..... Priya is still living somewer thinking
of her one nd only love.....

Mixture of emotions

Saturday, date:Unknown
10;00 AM

Am speeding through the streets amongst the heavy mornig traffic...... The passersby scold me for my rash driving but who cares ter is a gal waiting for me at the other end of the city....... I ignore their scoldings nd keep on driving.......
Finally i reach the ladies hostel..... In the entrance ter she waits, her face red filled with anger.......
Am afraid wat she is gonna tel..... I've made her wait for an hour....... Kudos to the defective alarm i woke up late.......
I convince her to get in my car....... i keep on driving...... she doesnt even open her mouth...... I keep on asking sorry to her nd finally she forgives me telling tat life is nothin but doin mistakes nd forgiving...... I keep on driving for about an hour or so nd finally v reach my friend's home wer v were planning a get-to-gether....... Today was the day am gonna introduce my fiancee to my friends...... V have a long chat...... my frnd's wife has prepared lunch for us......
after the lunch two more friends join us...... then me nd my fiancee leave my frnd's home nd head towards a beach wer i have arranges a dinner beside the shore.......

The same day
6;30 PM

My fiancee was moved by my arrangements nd gave me a warm hug.......
Me nd my gal have a stroll by the shore......

There is slight drizzling nd the surrounding is soooo romantic tat my fiancee tells "u r the most romantic person in the world" nd hugs me again nd comes close to kiss my lips..........

Munbe vaa en anbae vaa plays in the background........ The alarm of my mobile........
I woke up at 7 in the morning wih cherishing memories.......... But the tragic part of the story is that i am not able to remember the face of my fiancee.........